Me, 16, skinny...very skinny, overgrown wild hair, funny some say, weird some say, cool some say. At school, Im no big hit . I live in Hawaii, Got friends, got grades, and girls seemed like a fantasy, I haven't had a girlfriend, like ever and that seemed like a dream. This is my story about a girl I found quite recently, and it's all true, seems like a fantasy. Because when I first met her...well lets see actually lets start off with Me being 13, a jerk, an idiot, retarded XD. My Dad told me that a girl and her brother was coming from New York, children of a friend of my Dads. I was like wha'ever, hiding my emotion, my mind whirling with possibilites of how the girl would be, not really considering the younger brother that was coming with the 11 year old girl. But in the end I thought she was "only" 11. When I saw her coming down the drive-way, I think finally the rusty gears in my heart...started turning. She was beautiful, straight long black hair, the prettiest face I've ever seen, slim body, it was a dream. I got nervous and didn't really talk much around her, I just tried my best to be myself. But sadly the trip was only one night and she left, we all screamed bye at eachother...And I felt I was released from an invisible hand that was squeezing me tight. I just whisked that coincidence of a meeting with a beautiful girl away. It was just a fantasy dont even think about things. L8ter on, I tried forgeting about her, but that didn't work, because she was coming for a second trip, this time at a hotel near the beach. We met, I was 14, she was 12, Ive grown a little I guess, and shes grown definetly as well. We talked, but we didn;t have much time to hang out, there were many little 9 year old tikes bothering us. I was just nervous, I wanted to impress her somehow. We all went to the beach, I was ashamed of my skinny body, looking at her, wet body, slim arms, legs, body, curves, she was sexy, she was hot, I tried avoiding looking at her ample breasts being held back by her two piece bikini and I just couldn't stand it all I could do was glance, I didnt want to embarass myself. She was beyond me. We got to eat dinner and we got to know about each other more and more and I felt like we enjoyed each others company. But again it was a one night. When she left tho...I swear...I saw a sad face...and maybe even a tear. But I ignored it, convinsing myself, she just liked Hawaii, it is a nice place after all and I waved her goodbye and a safe trip back to New York...so far away... I felt sadder, empty when she left, I was depressed, I tried to shake myself away from her. It was another coincidence, and shes not for u, shes on a whole nother level from you. So in time I was able to calm down from her. By now, the gears in my heart were well oiled and heating up. But then, *shake fist at the sky* She was coming for another trip. I was 15 she was 13. But this time, she was staying for a week. I kept repeating to myself "Oh my god" I just didn't know what to do, wtf was playing tricks with me? The day finally came and the week was going well. We talked, and we finally hanged out. We hung out at my house, and at her hotel, at the beach, in a jacuzzi, a Denny's, Cheesecake Factory, in the Car, and went water tubing. I was desperatly trying to find signs of love from her to me because I was too stupid and nervous around her. We got to know each other much more, and I found out...she was funny, actually funny, happy, springy, care-free, and nice to everyone she meets, she was perfect. I didn't know what to do, what chance do i have with HER. But I did pick up some signs. She wanted to sit next to me...sometimes, she'd hang out with me alot, around the beach, and when we went tubing we layed next to each other and she wrapped her leg around mine for "support" because tubing is a tough thing to do, especially to hang on. I thought that was reasonable, remembering how much I was blushing, glad that the water was spraying in our faces. But I brushed those off, i brushed everything off, fantasys of us together...they were just fantasies. She left, and I can nver forget, that she was sad, to the brink of crying, and we hugged, and she left...I was sad...Empty more than ever, but the gears, the gears in my heart were almost in full motion now. I desperatly tried keeping in contact with her through yahoo messenger, emailing, and dA. And now, im 16, she's 14. It happened, during Yahoo messenging, we were just talking, it was innocent, and this is exactly what happened.

"organization14: Everytime you think of me what do you feel? Truthfully now, im dead serious
kupo113: i feel very good inside, that ur the best guy i've ever met, and i feel so lucky to have u as a BFF~
organization14: Well since Im letting go of everything, whenever I think of u i feel joy, excitement, my blood starts pumping, i get really...tingly, but at the same time i feel sad and worried
kupo113: hello? i have more to say
kupo113: just maybe.........we can take our stong friendship farther in nojirii ..:"> cuz i REALLY really like u~, there i said it."

And the gears in my heart exploded. I was over joyed, I was so happy, I didnt know what to do, I was dizzy, I was happy, I was excited. And now theres another trip, we are going to be together for 3 weeks, with much mroe freedom in Japan at this place called Nojiriko. Beach/forest/camping/cabins, with a hell of a lotta adventuring. And many times we can be alone. We love each other now, she drills in my mind, that she loves me, and I trust her, and I love her.

*true story